You Gotta Write, Man!

Here’s the tough thing about blogging:  You have to write!  I am a pretty introverted person.  Not that I don’t like people and not that I don’t like to socialize.  I just keep things to myself.  I am constantly thinking and “writing” things in my head.  I preview conversations in my head:  “What if I say this?  What will the response me?  Is the conversation going to be worthwhile.”  Sometimes I forget then to actually have the conversation and other times I don’t remember whether I actually had the conversation or not.  Crazy?  I don’t know.

I have been doing the same thing with 40phor.  I have tons of ideas and thoughts.  I have written thousand word essays in my head a thousand times but when it is time to sit and write I go completely blank.  I don’t know if I am afraid to write my thoughts or if subconsciously I don’t think people care what I have to say.  Of course there is a third option:  I don’t care if people care so why bother.

This summer I took a personality inventory as a way to assess my leadership skills and look for areas to improve.  My boss thought it would be a good idea and I really enjoyed the process.  One of the areas that came to light was that I had a low regard for people.  This would come as a surprise to people who know me as it did to me.  If you know me you know I care very much about the plight of others, I care very much for my family and I care very much about the people I work for and with.

Looking into it more deeply I discovered that it meant I had a low regard for what others thought of ME!  In some ways I guess that’s true.  I tend to make decisions based on research and not so much on opinion or what others will think. If I don’t know something I want to learn about it.  If you ask me a question that I can’t answer you can guarantee that I will be on Google any minute.  I love to know stuff.  On the other hand I really do value the appreciation of others.  I get all excited when someone comments on this or my other blog.  I tend to not show a lot of emotion but I feel a lot of emotion.

What does that have to do with writing?  Well, nothing I guess.  I just have to get over this internal dichotomy.  I want you to like what I do but I don’t really care if you do. That doesn’t sound right:  I want you to read what I write, I want your feedback on what I write, but I really just gotta write, man!

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3 thoughts on “You Gotta Write, Man!

  1. I really got into blogging about three years ago. Like you, I also love to write. Sometimes it seems like there’s nothing to really say until you sit down and start typing (like you just did) and then you realize that there’s a TON of things to write.

    I look at writing, even if it’s just a bunch of garbled thoughts, as a way to exercise the brain, and at times it helps to see things more objectively.

    I think it’s awesome that you make decisions with little regard to what others think of you. I look at that as a positive trait because I think many more people than would admit, make decisions based on how they’ll be judged.

    Keep writing! You might just inspire me to get back into it. 🙂

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  2. I’ve known most of this about you for a while. You summed it up pretty well. However, I wish you would sometimes show some of that emotion. It is easy to forget that it’s there.

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